Monday, October 1, 2012

Changes, changes, changes...

Guess I update this thing way too little. Not that anyone cares lol. Think I'll keep updating though, so I can look back at this and laugh in the future.
I think I'm addicted to changes... or advancing in life. It's just never enough... maybe that's just with everyone? My entire life I've been moving around a lot. It's really a lonely road. You make amazing friends, than you have to move. You try to keep in contact, but it's hard when you do it every 2 years. Old friends become old old friends, then old old old friends, etc. New location means, having to be out going and networking. A friend has been trying to help me do that for me, but ugh... I think I'm worn out from all my previous years. I don't have that drive to go meet and greet as much as I did before. Maybe it's just laziness.
Anyways enough of that. I'm here in Orange County and I absolutely love my job. Currently I'm making another prototype to pitch to the company. This prototyping thing is new and a change for me. And I love it.
So once again in my life, job awesome, social life bleg... lol
Been trying to fix myself (again). Let's see... been learning to trim down on my drinking. It's time to grow up now... I think. Trying to remember names when I meet people... reason why my networking skills suck. Working out again to get my health back from all the partying. Also have a bet with a friend to get 6 pack before end of December. Lol. It's not going too well. I DID sign up for a gym so that should help. And I've been trying to go out alone and enjoy myself. Figure it's a good idea since it's just me, myself, and I wherever I move to. Guess it sounds like a loser thing to do but hey, life happens right? I did this in Colorado and you know what... I really really enjoyed it. Hated it at first but man... when you get to a point where you're just so comfortable with yourself to go off alone, that's pure confidence and it feels great. I'm just trying to gain that back because I'm at that similar point. Daniel in a new area again point. So I'll force myself every week to go do something by myself and not just linger in front of this computer all day.
It's that time of the age where everyone's getting married and parents and relatives start asking when you're going to get married. Haha. I've been anti marriage for a long time, but recently, I've seen some hope. Been meeting perfectly happy married people that shine the positive light towards it. Seems like kids are the solution. Lol. The whole dating game is getting old too. You make so many meaningless connections with people, it starts to seem like a waste of time. Told myself, next person that seem worthy, that's it.
Industry. So I've been watching a lot of TV lately and see all these quick fly-by cg shots for ads and shows. Like the NFL logo fly ins, or Syfy's new branding. I look at these now and go, holy shit, I can make this at home! Lol... So I've been trying to start something. Start a new company that does stuff like that with a coworker and a friend of mine. Right now it's all research and development! 3D is getting boring. Need something new (once again... changes) to entertain me. A co worker introduced me to what After Effects can do and wow... I'm hooked! It's so much fun making interesting visuals at a fast pace. It's like photoshop with movements and flashy tools. This is going to help me venture off into the marketing industry, which I really love. Why? The fast pace of it. You don't linger in just one vision. It's fast, beautiful, and on to the next one. Told myself if my own company doesn't get started, The Mill is the place I want to work at. They do some amazing stuff. As of right now, just learning new stuff to become a better cg generalist.
Sugar-coat. So the whole blunt thing isn't a good thing now. I've been trying to learn how to sugar coat things and watch what I say. Guess it's just a old tradition?? Our society has no tolerance for real criticisms now. Everything has to be watered down and sugar coated in the media... no one likes to talk about the elephant in the room. Even for gaming, they don't post your losses anymore. Only your wins. How do you try to better yourself without seeing the negative in life? This isn't just the gaming. It's everything. Been watching the news and it's like, "OMG You hear what he/she said?? I can't believe it, they should get fired". Everyone's at each other's throats for voicing their opinions. Can no one have a mind of their own anymore? Sure you can disagree on something but it doesn't mean you have to viciously go at each other about it. Everyone's a critic at anything now too. Yet doesn't defend the freedom of speech. So much censorship around us because few people are offended by what people say... it's so retarded. ANYWAYS... yeah... I've been learning to shut up more and been trying to sugar coat the blunt-ness. I really hate it but I have to. It's... bleh... lol.

Anyways... I'm freaking(sugarcoat for fucking) tired. I blabbered about nothing and used "I" about a billion times. Nite.

No comments: